Monthly Archives: May 2009

Life is an incurable sexually transmitted disease! ;o)

The quote above was something that Deepak Chopra said in the movie I watched last night. There was a lot of great information that I need to interpret as my notes are pretty messy. I was taking the notes in the dark and was sometimes not able to remember all of the words I wanted. I’ve ordered the movie and will watch it again as there is so much to get all at once.

I wanted to tell a cute story about my dog Ginger–I’ll add her picture at some point under “pictures”.

Yesterday, as I was doing my errands around the house, I started thinking about the outside errands I still needed to do: grocery shopping, picking up water, etc… As soon as I thought this, my dog started jumping like she does when I’m getting dressed to go out and she’s coming with me–i.e. I have her leash in my hand. I still had the laundry basket in my arms and I wasn’t even dressed to go out! It was spooky and cute at the same time. We’ve finally bonded!

Ginger was a year old rescue dog when I got her a year and a half ago, she obviously did not have a lot of people contact as she didn’t necessarily want to be around people–she wasn’t scared–she was almost stand-offish, and she had little or no training of any kind. Can you imagine a fully grown dog with no training (75 lbs)!? The liking people thing came pretty easily, but her learning to respect and trust me came slowly. I have noticed over the past few months– especially since I had to put my other dog, Ceilidh, down–that Ginger has been listening to me more/better, but didn’t realize exactly how far she has come until yesterday.

Also, I had the back gate open and she didn’t run away! She waited at the gate for me. This is the first time she EVER did that. Do you know how many times I’ve had to chase her across busy streets or down the back lanes where I live?!? I was so proud of her!

When I first got her I saw that she had tons of potential and that’s what I told people, it’s nice to know that my instincts are/were right! And she reads my mind too!

TTFN

C. – April 18, 2009

What this blog is all about

So, I’m on this journey of growing into my best life, or creating my best life. This includes my physical health, my spiritual practice, as well as my random thoughts as I take this wonderful trip of life.

I’m starting this web journal to help myself be accountable and to share if anyone is interested. If there is anyone “out there” who “gets” anything from what I write, I hope they share their thoughts and comments with me.

A little about myself…I’m 44, a female, who started a process of getting to know myself after a breakup of a tumultuous relationship–the catalyst. I realized that I had chosen that relationship and stayed with it for so long because I had no sense of confidence in who I was. I had stayed when I knew it wasn’t good, I moved across the country when I knew it was NOT the right thing to do–left my family and everything I knew to be with someone who didn’t know how to treat me well.

I changed a lot in the course of that relationship, and when I finally reached the point that I KNEW I had to leave–for myself–I didn’t know who Ceanne was any longer. The party girl was gone, what remained was a scared, lonely person. I knew i couldn’t go back, but where to go??

That was, believe it or not, 13 years ago. Since then I’ve created a partial life, not quite what I envisioned when I was growing up–but then I’m STILL growing up.

I didn’t think I’d start by writing about my past as I don’t really spend too much time looking backwards any longer, but I read that you need to know where you are to know where you’re going, so…

My priorities…

A week ago, a Practitioner at my church had me do some homework as I had asked for a Spiritual Mind Treatment for “easy sleep that rejuvenates me” and “motivation to move my body more”. A recurring theme in my life is not living my priorities so she asked me to list my top 10 priorities and then track, for a week, where I spend my time”. I have my list of priorities, they are:(in no particular order)

1. My house – Keeping it clean, organized, keeping things in good working order, get rid of “tolerations” (definition below), garden, etc.

2. My “Babies” – My pets. I have a dog and 2 cats that need love, food, attention. And the dog needs to be walked regularly.

3. Crafts/Creativity – I love creating things through crochet, knitting, coloring, beading, etc., etc. Just LOVE making things with my own two hands.

4. Work – Being organized, enjoying what I do, getting good sleep so can be most effective and clear thinking, being on time.

5. Reading – I LOVE to read. My spiritual practice, fiction, personal growth/health, etc.6. Friends and Family – Talking with them (spending time with them), Facebook, church, etc.7. Spiritual Practice – Prayer, church, reading, classes, etc.

8. My health – Physical movement, nutrition, sleep, reading/learning, etc.

9. My volunteer work – Leadership committee, church, library, work activities/committee involvement.

10. Love – Finding love with a man. The following phrase is something I heard a woman describe her relationship with her husband as–and I loved it, so am copying it. “Holy, juicy, monogamous, loving” and I add friendly. I want someone to look at me with passion and love again–it’s been a long time and I miss it.

* Tolerations are those things you often let slide but every time you see/hear them you say “I should do something with that.” eg. a leaking tap, ugly carpeting that will be expensive to change, strange noise coming from your fridge, etc.I’m going to end now because I’ve already wrote more than I originally thought I would and I’m using my Eee which has an amazingly small keyboard that I’m “tolerating” typing on.

TTFN
Ceanne April 17, 2009