Monthly Archives: July 2010

Wishcast Wednesday – How do you wish to nourish yourself?

Another perfect wish prompt from Jamie Ridler on today’s Wishcast Wednesday

How do you wish to nourish yourself?

Again, this week’s prompt is right where I have been trying to focus myself.

I  have realized that I need to really focus on loving myself.  In a world where we are constantly bombarded by images that have been adjusted to fit some ideal that the media has decided is ideal, it can be hard to look at ourselves in the mirror and just love what’s there–especially when it is considerably NOT like the media’s image of ideal.

I wish to nourish myself by loving the body that I have, “flaws” and all.  This body, this prize provided me for my human experience is a miracle–and logically and in faith, I know that.  I need to continue to nourish my body with the love that it needs to feel accepted.  This, I believe, is one of the key things that is missing in my life right now–real self-love, extreme self-acceptance.

I wish to nourish myself by allowing myself to just be me…and let go of other’s ideas of who I’m supposed to be.  And know that other’s can have their opinions but they don’t need to challenge me, because I know that I’m okay the way I am.

I wish to nourish play, gracefulness, ease, and joy–I spend so much time “in my head” or focusing on what I need to do–or what I haven’t done–that I tend to lose track of just enjoying the moment.  Play with my dog Ruby, dance around the house, sing at the top of my lungs, walk for joy in nature instead of needing to “get that exercise” and walk for a certain length of time or mileage.

Have a wonderful day!

C.

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Discovery Journal Prompt – Discover Yourself

Years ago, I gathered up hundreds of journal prompts and put them on labels and into a cute little box for my “Discovery Journal Prompts”. I would then, put my hand into the box and pull out a label at random and that would be the perfect prompt for me for that particular day. Great plans, right??? 

I haven’t done a thing with them since…until today! Welcome to my Discovery Journal Prompt debut!

These are not necessarily emotionally hard prompts to answer, they’re more journal prompts to get you to go inside and think about yourself–memories, wants, whatever.  Not sure how  many are going to follow along, but you’re more than welcome, if you wish.  My intention is to do one prompt each Monday.

Here’s today’s…

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. – Helen Keller

What closed door do you keep staring at?

My first thought was “sh**t, why did I have to pick that one!!!” But…it is a recurring theme in my life. I know that I am doing or keeping things in my life that are not supportive of my BEST SELF, so…grab the bull by the horns and let’s discuss.

So…even more interesting…I had written a lot about the closed door of love but, when I read back over all that I had written, what came to me is not that I keep looking at the “love” door that has closed but…that I keep looking at the closed door of my PAST and not looking enough towards my open door of happiness that is my future or, better yet, my present time!!! How’s that for a breakthrough???

I tried to keep the words that I had written but do a cross out text on them but as I was working on that, I accidentally deleted them…so…that also says to me, that I need to let go of the story of my past–and quit claiming it as mine. I do not wish to be the story or stories of my past any longer. I’m done with it!!!

Imagine girl jumping up and down, raising her arms in triumph to the ceiling (raising the ceiling). Yay!!!

C.

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Wishcast Wednesday – What do you wish to envision?

Another great Wishcast Prompt from Jamie Ridler.

What do you wish to envision?

This prompt is so on point for me right now as I am working on envisioning my abundant life–I seem to have some blocks as “stuff” keeps coming up (falling off my bike twice in the past few days, someone hit my truck, debts). But…I’m trying to let my anxiety just wash over me, let the pain (and bruises) from the falls fade easily and quickly–my inner 5-year-old still wants to whine though–, and envision (and know) that my life is abundant and prosperous. And, thankfully, there was no damage to my truck, the other vehicle got the worst of it–and my truck was parked in my driveway when it happened. The neighbor across the back lane forgot to put her hand brake on and…she feels worse than I do. I hope I was able to convince her that I’m not upset at all.

Those three things are my current “focus” as that’s what’s been in front of me lately but I also want to continue to focus and envision me living my best life–whatever that may look like, Spirit will guide me.

Thanks for reading as always.

Blessing to all!

Home

I was reading through some of my old journals the other day–trying to find a quote by Mary J. Blige that I had written down – “I blame my mother for nothing, but I forgive her everything.” I might write about that quote another time but today I thought I’d share something I wrote about “Home” from January, 2002, shortly after I purchased my first house by myself. It is mostly about my first house that I purchased with my partner at the time–in 1993.

Home – In every place I have lived I have always tried to create a home–a place where I could relax fully, where I was surrounded by things I love (heirlooms, pets, people, things I think are beautiful or useful). A place where I could be happy just being me. A place where others could be comfortable too. My first house, I loved because it was my only place–it had all of my worldly goods in it and all of my love went in it. I tried to make it comfortable–and it was.

I loved just sitting and staring out the window into the trees, watching the blue jays at the feeder and listening to their squeak (one of my favorite sounds). I loved the view from my kitchen window of the Cape Breton Highlands and St. Anne’s Bay. On foggy days I felt like I was in the world alone and I was both afraid and intrigued by that feeling.

I loved to watch Cochise (my Chesapeake Bay Retriever who passed away shortly before I left) saunter past me, looking at me, with a shoe in his mouth knowing he was trying to get my attention–he knew he was not supposed to have shoes in his mouth. I loved waking up with Tinka (my cat at the time) sleeping on my hip.

It was a good home and I have a lot of good memories there. I try to keep those foremost in my mind because that haven was also a little bit of hell to me. When Jim was around, I felt trapped and uncomfortable. I never knew what would set him off or when he would yell at me, or for what. It could be months of fun and laughter and love and then one day, one moment, could cloud my life so completely that I felt I couldn’t breathe. After a while, I realized I was more tied to the house (my home) that to Jim but I could not leave my life there. It was a place of infinite peace when he was not around. Finally, I knew the only way I was ever going to be free of him was to leave my home. I had to leave my home first before I could leave Jim–within two months I was strong enough to do so.

I think of that house a lot. I miss it still. I had a lot of firsts there. And of course the beautiful scenery of the Canadian East Coast–Englishtown, Nova Scotia. Thankfully I have pictures and my memories.

The most important thing about having a home is having a safe haven. That’s what I’m trying to create for myself in this home. I may hot have the beautiful scenery of Cape Breton (I moved back to my home province of Manitoba) but I can create a beautiful landscape–a place I can take pride in because I have created and am creating a home for myself where there is no one who can make me feel trapped or scared again.

And I don’t have to leave this place unless I want to.

When I read this, it struck me for a few reasons–first of all, I didn’t even realize it was my writing until I got to the part about Cape Breton. Secondly, is that I still am working on creating that safe haven for myself in my home, but more importantly in myself.

That safe haven can’t be hurt or scared unless I chose–and I don’t for the most part. I still have a way to go, but I’m still going forward. And, no matter where I am, I will create home.

Here’s some beautiful pictures of Cape Breton and Nova Scotia. If you ever get a chance to visit there, I highly recommend it. You will find some of the most beautiful scenery in the world (yes, that’s right…the world!!) and the most friendly people ever!

C.

Wishcast Wednesday – What do you wish to focus on?

Another great prompt from Jamie Ridler for Wishcast Wednesday. I can hardly wait until Wednesday’s these days to see what her prompt is going to be! It’s also really the only time I’m writing on my blog so I find it inspiring to write.

Today’s prompt: What do you wish to focus on?

A great question to ask someone like me who usually has “too many” things to focus on–I like “projects” for myself. The problem with this is that I do not focus enough on the basics of self-care.

What I wish to focus on is:

– Getting enough sleep every day – at least 7 to 8 hours!
– Eating lots of vegetables
– Getting some sort of exercise most days of the week!
– Talking to my friends on a regular basis – I tend to get focused on my projects and forget about the rest of the world. I wonder if that’s a bit of putting my head in the sand (the answer is probably, “yes!”)
– Just taking really good care of myself.

Thanks!

Wishcast Wednesday – What do you wish from your relationships?

What do you wish from your relationships?

Another great question from Jamie Ridler.

What I wish from my relationships is…

  • Acceptance of me as me
  • Loving me for who I am
  • Supporting me with my goals, dreams, wishes
  • Being there when I need them–it’s hard for me to ask
  • Loving me

It’s interesting, and I’m sure others will note this too–that what I wish from my relationships is the same thing I wish from myself…

Have a great day!!!