Epiphany

So, this morning I had another epiphany–I just LOVE that word, I much prefer it to “aha” or “lightbulb moment”.  Now, when you read this your going to go “uh, ya” like “didn’t you know that?” and I do/did know it, it just finally sunk in I guess.  Read on…

This morning I woke again, at my regular time for work and was EXHAUSTED again from another tough night tossing and turning, not being able to get my head to shut off from the nothing important thoughts whirling around my head.  I had the light on and read for a bit, but my eyes were so tired I couldn’t keep reading, then I’d toss and turn some more, open the window, turn on the fan, toss and turn, turn on the light and try reading again–this went on most of the night.  So…I had to phone in to work–again–I would be late, had insomnia again…I hate that!  So, when I finally woke up seemingly refreshed several hours later, I was amazed at how easy it was for me to get up, have breakfast, have a shower, and be at work within an hour of getting up (I do live only a 5 minutes automobile drive, or 12 minute bike ride away).  How come, I can’t do that in the morning???  And then it dawned on me–I am NEVER refreshed in the morning because of not sleeping properly.  I am going for a sleep study because I might also have sleep apnea or something that is causing me to not get a refreshing sleep within 6 – 8 hours–on the weekends I usually sleep anywhere from 11 or 12 hours a night, of course, I may just be in a huge sleep debt by then.  But, when I was on holiday, I slept mostly 10+ hours each night too.
So, here’s my epiphany, I need to do whatever I can to make sure I am asleep around 9:00pm each night.  Here comes the “uh, ya” moment.  Yes, I did know this but, I’ve just been telling myself that you need more sleep, got to go to bed–not necessarily doing much to help get to sleep.  I have had insomnia on and off for the last several years–hormones probably, the joys of aging as a woman–and I had received some natural sleep aid from a Naturpath Doctor I saw a few years ago.  would use those “sleeping pills” when I needed to.  But, I’ve always struggled with worries of needing to take them.  But, I think I do need something and I know that over-the-counter sleeping aids do not work and these are not supposed to be habit-forming.  So, I’m going to take them at 9:00pm each evening which, if they take effect like they usually do, should give me approx. 9 hours of sleep by the time I’m supposed to be getting up to get to work.  Keep a good thought for me.
Now, if you’ve been reading at all, you know that I am really in a cocooning stage in my life right now and, in some ways, I feel it’s like a rebirthing stage.  I feel like I’m learning how to really take care of myself. So, the sleeping thing is just one more way that I’m taking care of myself “appropriately”, as well as the 3 litres of water I drink a day, green tea, regular tea, etc.  I still need to eating more veg and fruit, but that’s in the works already.
Thanks for listening…
And for my 250 Word a Day challenge stats – the word count above is approx. 600!
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