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Wishcast Wednesday – How do you wish to be brave?

Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one’s courage.  – Anais Nin

Jamie Ridler has a gift of chosing the perfect Wishcast prompt!  I so see many other Wishcasters say the same thing.  She has certainly done it again this week for me.

This week’s Wishcast prompt is…

How do you wish to be brave?

Before I respond, I just want to thank you for visiting my new (under construction) Ceanne’s Best Life blog.  I’m now using WordPress, which I’ve heard very good reviews on.  I’ve adapted this blog so it’s very similar in feel to my old blogger site but I still have more that I’m in the process of doing to make it “ME”.  It’ll be a slow development but I’m excited about it.  So…welcome!!

To respond to Jamie’s prompt this week, I need to talk about a huge decision I made last week in joining a 12 step program to work through my compulsive overeating.  This is where I want to be brave…working through the process of learning about why I eat the way I do and the process of learning a way to help still the neediness in me.

The last week was not easy but it was easier than I thought it would be.  I’m still working through some of the literature, it’s hard to be honest sometimes in the words that a 12 step program uses.  I’m learning though…

One thought that came to me this morning was “if I was ill and couldn’t eat a certain thing then I wouldn’t”.  And I see my overeating of certain foods the same way–those foods make me ill.  Eating them holds me back from living my full potential, from being “well”. 

An example would be–and I’m being brutally honest here–that most Friday’s I would stop by the store and pick up a bag of potato chips–not the small indivual size, but the next size up.  Probably 1500 calories in each bag (or more).  I would eat that and then some each Friday, stay up until at least 1 or 2:00am (often later)  and then fall into a restless sleep and wake up the next morning still feeling worn out (with a food hangover is how I described it).  This has been going on for years.  This last Friday, I knew I could not repeat that pattern so I chose to do something  different–drove right past the local grocery store, got home and made myself a healthy dinner, and then did crafts while watching TV (I’ve just taken up origami to add to my craft repetoire).  By midnight, I was ready for bed and had a very good sleep.  I woke up the next morning actually feeling refreshed!  I had some energy that I used in productive ways before I went to my part-time job in the afternoon. 

Since then, I’ve been more tired than usual, however, but I think that’s just the changes my body and mind are going through.  I’m also more emotional than “normal” but that’s also to be expected since I’ve been “stuffing” my feelings for so long.

I’m going to apologize here if I’m being a downer in any way…this is just where I am right now…working through years of habits and compulsions.  And for that I certainly need to be brave!

Thanks as always for listening and you support!!  As you wish for yourself, I also wish for you all!

Whatever you do, you need courage.  Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong.  There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe that you are wrong.  There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe that your critics are right.  To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires some of the same courage that a soldier needs.  Peace has its victories, but it takes brave men and women to win them. 
– Ralph Waldo Emerson
 

I count him braver who overcomes his desires than him who conquers his enemies; for the hardest victory is over self. – Aristotle

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Wishcast Wednesday – How do you wish to sparkle?

The incredible Jamie Ridler has done it again!  Her Wishcast Wednesday prompt is right on the money!  (As usual!)

This week’s Wishcast prompt is:
How do you wish to *sparkle*?
 
The reason that this is such a good prompt for me this week, is that I am currently working on an upward rise of attitude, intention, consciousness…
 
The last few weeks (or even longer) have been a roller-coaster of emotions, thoughts, and energy.  I’ve made a few decisions about my life–one of them being joining a 12 step program in regards to my eating habits (or addiction as I’ve come to realize).  The first meeting was last night and it was good.  Another decision is to cut back on a lot of the things I was trying (unsuccessfully*) to take part in.  I’ve paired down to the most important things I wish to participate in or accomplish.
 
Which leads me to my *sparkle* list…
 
  • I wish that my new updated blog (coming soon) is sparkly, delicious, and inviting–and a place where others feel worthwhile spending a bit of time.
  • I wish to sparkle with my creativity–this year I’m going to do my first craft show, put on a few Dream Board workshops with a friend, and I might even have a creativity blog (working on that too!)
  • My 12 step journey–I know it will probably be fraught with lots of emotions, but my wish is that with the support of peers I will sparkle my way to a level of consciousness that I have yet to achieve.
  • I wish to sparkle with my relationships–that they are fun, easygoing, and enjoyable.
  • I wish to radiate sparkle!
Your diamonds are not in far distant mountains or in yonder seas; they are in your own backyard, if you but dig for them. – Russel H. Conwell

Wishcast Wednesday – What gifts do you wish to share?

Wowzers!  Jamie Ridler’s Wishcast wish prompt this week is “What gifts do you wish to share?” 

And that question kind of hit me between the eyes…the last several weeks I’ve been having some difficult moments with feeling like what I have to offer isn’t necessarily what people want.  This question really put the words to what I’ve been feeling–I’ve been trying to offer some gifts of myself but, in certain circumstances, those gifts have been rebuffed.  Hence, the “wowzers!”
As I said, this feeling of rejection–because that’s what it’s really about, isn’t in all situations or with all people.  But each time it happens, it does hurt deep–obviously a deep wound from my past.  Feelings of rejection are a recurring issue of mine. 
But…I’m digressing into painful feelings and not focusing on the question at hand.  It’s important for me to process these feelings of rejection, and I will, but not here.  My wishes are for focusing on the positives in life, to help change my feelings of pain to feelings of possibilities and light.  To know that the uncomfortable feelings also provide an opportunity to shift my focus.  Today, it’s to know that the opposite of “rejection” is “acceptance”–and that acceptance is really my goal–my acceptance of ME!
So…the gifts I wish to share are:
– My ability to shift focus to the where I want to go (sometimes it takes me longer than I’d like though…)
– My collection of quotes–some times it feels inexhaustible.  Words have such deep meaning to me.
– My creativity–my arts, my crafts, my vision, my standards of detail.
– My love–my wounded heart (it’s healing)
– My joy–need to share it more with myself too!
– My gratitude–to everyone who “gets” me; and to Spirit, always!
To be born is to be chosen.  No one is here by accident.  Each one of us was sent here for a special destiny.  For millions of years, before you arrived here, the dream of your individuality was carefully prepared.  You were sent to be a shape of destiny in which you would be able to express the special gift you bring the world…Sometimes this gift may involve suffering and pain that can neither be accounted for or explained…It is in the depths of your life that you will discover the invisible necessity that has brought you here.  – John O’Donahue

The blessings for which we hunger are not to be found in other places or people.  These gifts can only be given to you by yourself.  They are at home in the hearth of your soul.  – John O’Donahue

All of us are gifted.  Every person has a gift that can bring great joy and light to those who encounter it.  Our task is to stand in the sun and create a climate that will develop and nurture our gift.  – Anonymous

Because our gifts carry us out into the world and make us participants in life, the uncovering of them is one of the most important tasks confronting any one of us.  When we talk about being true to ourselves–being the persons we are intended to be–we are talking about gifts.  We cannot be ourselves unless we are true to our gifts.  – Elizabeth O’Connor

We are each gifted in a unique and important way. It is our privilege and adventure to discover our own special light. – Mary Dunbar
Thanks!!