Monthly Archives: September 2011

Wishcast Wednesday – What do you wish for Autumn?

Climb the mountains and get their good tidings.  Nature’s peace will flow into you as sunshine flows into trees.  The winds will blow their freshness into you, and the storms their energy, while cares will drop off like autumn leaves.
– John Muir

Ahhh, autumn, this week Jamie Ridler asks “What do you wish for Fall?  (I took the liberty to change my title to “Autumn” because I love the look of the word and taste and form of it in my mouth when I say it…)

Autumn has always been one of my favorite seasons–I have a hard time picking between spring and fall–when it’s spring, it’s my favorite and when it’s autumn, well, you know…  Autumn is like a fresh start in a lot of ways, and it probably is residue from childhood school days when you got new clothes, new books, new teachers, and new school year to learn in–like spring or the new year.

This year has been a year of major changes in my life, physically, my body is changing as it reduces in size and gaining energy and ease of movement (see “before and during” pictures in my previous post), and emotionally I’m changing as I work through the thoughts and memories that have kept me in a cocoon for so long…

For this autumn, I wish…

– for beautiful weather so that I can spend time outside walking in the fallen leaves and working in my garden (getting it ready for winter/spring)
– for continued love, support and guidance as I continue my changing life
– cozy nights cuddled up with my pets reading
– enjoyment, wonder, and awe as nature changes and gets ready for winter–geese flying and honking, the beauty of the landscape as the leaves change color, the sound of footsteps through the leaves, fresh and crisp air to breathe…

There is a harmony in autumn, and a lustre in the sky, which, through the summer, is not heard or seen.  – Percy Byshe Shelly


Before and during (pics)

I’ve been on this particular journey to recoverying from compulsive overeating since March of this year.  I’ve made significant changes in my eating lifestyle and have cut out foods that are not good for me and that cause a reaction of wanting more (and more and more and more…).  I am still getting my energy back after carrying around an extra 150+ lbs from my "normal" weight for my height and what I used to weigh in my adult life (until my 30’s).

Although I still have  along way to go emotionally and physically to be where I hope to be–when I get there, hopefully I’ll know ;o)–I wanted to share my journey so far with pictures of what I looked like when I started and what I look like now at 55 lbs down.

 I know that it’s not a HUGE difference, but this is the least I’ve weighed since my father passed away over 8 years ago!  And it’s easier and easier to move this body around in the world and fit into spaces that are meant for "normal" people.

Pictures in green shirt taken shortly after I started Overeater’s Anonymous and MFP, the second pictures, in the orange tye-dye, were taken last week:



Ceanne reviews “The Red Tent”

The Red TentThe Red Tent by Anita Diamant
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

I heard a lot about this book–a lot of negative comments from those who were proponents of the bible, and raves from those who were more open-minded to the fact that this was a story. I am not a proponent of the bible and was not raised in any specific faith so did not come to this story with any preconceived notions about Dinah. I actually have no memory of ever hearing about Dinah’s story in my somewhat limited knowledge of the bible. This book was recommended to me as a “book of faith”, which I actually didn’t find it to be–although there was mention of beliefs of the era of the story, the story didn’t come across to me as a book of faith.

Anyways, this was a good book–not my favorite–but the writing was superb and the story flowed wonderfully. So much so that it was hard to put it down at night so I’d get proper sleep.

So often, in reading I find the ending anti-climatic and this one was, for me, as well. If possible, I’d actually have given this book 3.5 stars–which is still a pretty good score for me…

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Who are you–really?

It’s been a few months since I’ve written anything on my blog–it was never very far from my mind, But with my starting OA (Overeater’s Anonymous), my mind has just been elsewhere (which it needed to be), and I didn’t have much to share with the great wide universe in writing–I sure shared a lot emotionally and spiritually. ;o)

We become more certain of ourselves
as our authenticity emerges.
– Sarah Ban Breathnach

I was on Facebook yesterday and came across this question from TED’s website, What is your greatest passion and how have you been able to develop and sustain it? This got me to thinking, “what am I passionate about?” I did reply to the question–my creativity and learning/self-discovery are the two things that I believe are a part of my everyday life; because that is who I am. I can’t imagine being on this planet and not having those in my life–I just wouldn’t be me, I believe. Now, I know that there’s so much more to me than just these two traits or characteristics, but these are core to who Ceanne really is.

This is what I wrote: ” I first saw this conversation yesterday so have had time to think of what I would answer. I thought my answer would be about my creativity–I love to dabble in a LOT of forms of creativity: crochet, knitting, painting, cross-stitch, decorating, collaging, etc., etc. I spend time in most days doing some form of creativity. My job is very administration based, paperwork, research, etc. and my logical brain needs to do that too…But, the one thing that is constant in my life is learning–whether it be through conversations with others, self-discovery, reading, journalling, education, etc., I LOVE learning. I know I’m on a journey… “

While I was reading other’s posts to the question above, on TED, I came across a quote that I have paraphrased into my own (ie. I “borrowed” it, and changed it, a bit)–What you’re passionate about is not just something you do, or accomplish; it’s about who you really are. And…I thought I’d share with others because I really think this is such an important thing for all of us to know–when we are being truly ourselves, we are living the life we’re “meant” to–living our purpose. And that is not just a great thing for ourselves, but it’s a great thing for the planet too!

What are you passionate about–who are you REALLY?