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Wishcast Wednesday – How do you wish to be brave?

Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one’s courage.  – Anais Nin

Jamie Ridler has a gift of chosing the perfect Wishcast prompt!  I so see many other Wishcasters say the same thing.  She has certainly done it again this week for me.

This week’s Wishcast prompt is…

How do you wish to be brave?

Before I respond, I just want to thank you for visiting my new (under construction) Ceanne’s Best Life blog.  I’m now using WordPress, which I’ve heard very good reviews on.  I’ve adapted this blog so it’s very similar in feel to my old blogger site but I still have more that I’m in the process of doing to make it “ME”.  It’ll be a slow development but I’m excited about it.  So…welcome!!

To respond to Jamie’s prompt this week, I need to talk about a huge decision I made last week in joining a 12 step program to work through my compulsive overeating.  This is where I want to be brave…working through the process of learning about why I eat the way I do and the process of learning a way to help still the neediness in me.

The last week was not easy but it was easier than I thought it would be.  I’m still working through some of the literature, it’s hard to be honest sometimes in the words that a 12 step program uses.  I’m learning though…

One thought that came to me this morning was “if I was ill and couldn’t eat a certain thing then I wouldn’t”.  And I see my overeating of certain foods the same way–those foods make me ill.  Eating them holds me back from living my full potential, from being “well”. 

An example would be–and I’m being brutally honest here–that most Friday’s I would stop by the store and pick up a bag of potato chips–not the small indivual size, but the next size up.  Probably 1500 calories in each bag (or more).  I would eat that and then some each Friday, stay up until at least 1 or 2:00am (often later)  and then fall into a restless sleep and wake up the next morning still feeling worn out (with a food hangover is how I described it).  This has been going on for years.  This last Friday, I knew I could not repeat that pattern so I chose to do something  different–drove right past the local grocery store, got home and made myself a healthy dinner, and then did crafts while watching TV (I’ve just taken up origami to add to my craft repetoire).  By midnight, I was ready for bed and had a very good sleep.  I woke up the next morning actually feeling refreshed!  I had some energy that I used in productive ways before I went to my part-time job in the afternoon. 

Since then, I’ve been more tired than usual, however, but I think that’s just the changes my body and mind are going through.  I’m also more emotional than “normal” but that’s also to be expected since I’ve been “stuffing” my feelings for so long.

I’m going to apologize here if I’m being a downer in any way…this is just where I am right now…working through years of habits and compulsions.  And for that I certainly need to be brave!

Thanks as always for listening and you support!!  As you wish for yourself, I also wish for you all!

Whatever you do, you need courage.  Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong.  There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe that you are wrong.  There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe that your critics are right.  To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires some of the same courage that a soldier needs.  Peace has its victories, but it takes brave men and women to win them. 
– Ralph Waldo Emerson
 

I count him braver who overcomes his desires than him who conquers his enemies; for the hardest victory is over self. – Aristotle

Wishcast Wednesday – What is your winter wish?

Bless Jamie Ridler for her weekly Wishcast prompt (and her other endeavors as well)!

I wasn’t sure I was going to join in this week because when I saw the prompt, my mind drew a complete blank…confused really…”how do I answer that?”  But…I thought, I really need to go to the other Wishcasters and give them my support by commenting on their blogs.  And then when I was reading the other Wishcaster’s words, it came to me what my Winter Wish is…
At this holiday time my mind so often goes to the “catch phrases” of the season because I really believe them to be important.
I wish for Peace on Earth, kindness toward others, joy, love, comfort, care…the list goes on and on…
Also, as winter is really a time for hibernation for nature and, as I live in one of the coldest provinces in Canada, I tend to spend a lot of time indoors “rebuilding” in the winter.  So…I wish for rest, rejuvenation, creative time with myself, reflecting, learning, growing, and treating myself with “extreme self-care”.
And, I also wish the above for anyone who may need it.
Bless all the Wishcasters and all who wish for a better life!
When we make a world tolerable for yourself, you make a world tolerable for others.  – Anais Nin
The personal life deeply lived always expands into truths beyond itself.  – Anais Nin
They who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night.  In their grey visions they obtain glimpses of eternity.  – Edgar Allan Poe

Weekly Intention – Making time for me

Thanks for Andrea for helping me set weekly intentions. 

This week’s intention is to make time for me and the things that are really important to me.
 
Over the last couple of week’s my full time job has really ramped up after a long period of very little activity–this is a really good thing for me as I was feeling very unsure as to where I belonged or what I should be doing.  So, to finally feel like I am being useful is a great thing.  The problem is that I stopped making time for me.  As you can see, I haven’t written in my blog for a week and half!  I haven’t had time (or made time) for my Sacred Sundays (working or other obligations).  And I haven’t even done the Wednesday Wishcast!  I’m not happy to see that. 
 
This blog is very important to me.  I’ve actually stopped doing other stuff like Facebook, etc. in order to dedicate myself to this blog, but, again, the last couple of weeks I haven’t been very dedicated.
 
So…again, my intention this week and in weeks, months, years to come is to make the time to do the things that are important for my well-being.

Epiphany

So, this morning I had another epiphany–I just LOVE that word, I much prefer it to “aha” or “lightbulb moment”.  Now, when you read this your going to go “uh, ya” like “didn’t you know that?” and I do/did know it, it just finally sunk in I guess.  Read on…

This morning I woke again, at my regular time for work and was EXHAUSTED again from another tough night tossing and turning, not being able to get my head to shut off from the nothing important thoughts whirling around my head.  I had the light on and read for a bit, but my eyes were so tired I couldn’t keep reading, then I’d toss and turn some more, open the window, turn on the fan, toss and turn, turn on the light and try reading again–this went on most of the night.  So…I had to phone in to work–again–I would be late, had insomnia again…I hate that!  So, when I finally woke up seemingly refreshed several hours later, I was amazed at how easy it was for me to get up, have breakfast, have a shower, and be at work within an hour of getting up (I do live only a 5 minutes automobile drive, or 12 minute bike ride away).  How come, I can’t do that in the morning???  And then it dawned on me–I am NEVER refreshed in the morning because of not sleeping properly.  I am going for a sleep study because I might also have sleep apnea or something that is causing me to not get a refreshing sleep within 6 – 8 hours–on the weekends I usually sleep anywhere from 11 or 12 hours a night, of course, I may just be in a huge sleep debt by then.  But, when I was on holiday, I slept mostly 10+ hours each night too.
So, here’s my epiphany, I need to do whatever I can to make sure I am asleep around 9:00pm each night.  Here comes the “uh, ya” moment.  Yes, I did know this but, I’ve just been telling myself that you need more sleep, got to go to bed–not necessarily doing much to help get to sleep.  I have had insomnia on and off for the last several years–hormones probably, the joys of aging as a woman–and I had received some natural sleep aid from a Naturpath Doctor I saw a few years ago.  would use those “sleeping pills” when I needed to.  But, I’ve always struggled with worries of needing to take them.  But, I think I do need something and I know that over-the-counter sleeping aids do not work and these are not supposed to be habit-forming.  So, I’m going to take them at 9:00pm each evening which, if they take effect like they usually do, should give me approx. 9 hours of sleep by the time I’m supposed to be getting up to get to work.  Keep a good thought for me.
Now, if you’ve been reading at all, you know that I am really in a cocooning stage in my life right now and, in some ways, I feel it’s like a rebirthing stage.  I feel like I’m learning how to really take care of myself. So, the sleeping thing is just one more way that I’m taking care of myself “appropriately”, as well as the 3 litres of water I drink a day, green tea, regular tea, etc.  I still need to eating more veg and fruit, but that’s in the works already.
Thanks for listening…
And for my 250 Word a Day challenge stats – the word count above is approx. 600!

Wishcast Wednesday – What do you wish to focus on?

Another great prompt from Jamie Ridler for Wishcast Wednesday. I can hardly wait until Wednesday’s these days to see what her prompt is going to be! It’s also really the only time I’m writing on my blog so I find it inspiring to write.

Today’s prompt: What do you wish to focus on?

A great question to ask someone like me who usually has “too many” things to focus on–I like “projects” for myself. The problem with this is that I do not focus enough on the basics of self-care.

What I wish to focus on is:

– Getting enough sleep every day – at least 7 to 8 hours!
– Eating lots of vegetables
– Getting some sort of exercise most days of the week!
– Talking to my friends on a regular basis – I tend to get focused on my projects and forget about the rest of the world. I wonder if that’s a bit of putting my head in the sand (the answer is probably, “yes!”)
– Just taking really good care of myself.

Thanks!